Yeah, I did it…again

A current fic (which really isn’t current since I finished it over a month ago) is finally up in PDF format. Haven’t felt like updating on buffynfaith.net as frequently as I used to and those are reasons I figure is better for me not to voice and besides, I write for me and share for the love of the fandom and I do it all on my own terms

Women suck sometimes…

I don’t know what I was thinking when I thought I had a chance with her. She told me she wasn’t looking for a girlfriend and now, surprise surprise, she has one after spending months saying how she just wanted a fuck buddy. The least she could’ve done was told me she wasn’t interested in me instead of lying about it and going on and on about how she didn’t want to be tied down by just one girl. What a fucking bitch, but I know I’m better off without her. Who needs an immature, lying bitch in your life when there are others out there that are worth my time more than her…

And now I feel better…slightly…just wish I could call her a bitch to her face, but then that’d just make me as low as she is, and just as immature and I can’t stoop to her level. I’m better than that.

Now comes the challenge, one that sucks since it’s slim pickings when it comes to girls I’d actually want to date. All the good ones are taken and all that are left are people like her and the girls who just fuck with your head and make it all some kind of sick game, leading you on, lying to you, fucking around behind your back. It’s too much to ask for a normal, sane girl to come in to my life and sweep me off me feet, isn’t it? Moments like this I feel like I’m destined to be alone for the rest of my life.

At least being alone I can just be me–not that I’d change myself for anyone. And I don’t know what’s worse, girls like her or feeling sorry for myself that I wasn’t good enough for her, not even enough for her to tell me the damn truth.

Women suck sometimes…but no matter what, I ain’t gonna give up until I find the one for me…wherever she may be–if she even exists outside the little fantasy I have in my mind about the perfect one for me…

Starting Over

I have no idea how many times I’ve deleted everything on this blog and started fresh. Maybe I’m a little too OCD about certain things in my life, or maybe I just have a problem keeping up with something as trivial as a personal blog.

Most of my time spent writing is writing fiction–fan fiction to be precise. I find it hard to keep up with a personal  blog, but once again here I am, trying to find the one place where I can unleash my thoughts, rant and vent (as if its not all the same thing really)

I’ve finally uploaded all completed fics in PDF format to my website which can be found here http://home.cogeco.ca/~invalid_reality/ or you can find it under the page Never Ending Realm of Words

Anyone who knows me well (which are few and far in between) knows that I get lazy at certain points and stop updating my personal website and the stories I’ve put on fanfiction.net. It’s not just laziness either, it’s forgetfulness and motivation and I post where I know it will be read by those who have been reading my fan fiction since I started writing it in March 2009

So, here we go…